Hi Dolls and Gents! I bet some of you are saying wow where the heck have you been? Lol. I took a small break from blogging then I started other projects that kinda took up all my time. Anyway let me finish up my story of the once ‘perfect man’ that I had. If you haven’t read the first part of Wish I Never Met you ..go back and read that first then come back so it will all make sense to you.
He had the nerve to send me a text asking me was I okay? I had forgot all about my precious heart that was breaking into a million pieces. I totally forgot that less than 24 hours ago he basically said he didn’t want me anymore. Instead I focused on how this man use to comfort me and always seem to have a genuine concern about my well being.
I was done pleading for answers and wondering why..at least with him. I kept typing no on my phone wondering if I should send it but at the last minute I decided to just ignore his text. I got up that morning just feeling so down. I would cry off and on while getting dressed for work. I cried all the way to work. I kept thinking it was just a bad dream.
Arriving at work I remember looking at my phone and seeing missed calls from him.
I couldn’t even get in the store and open it up before the business phone started ringing. Of course it was his ass. He was angry this time and asking why I didn’t answer his calls and why I hadn’t responded to his text. I wanted so badly to be angry and mean to him. HOW DARE YOU CALL AND ASK ME WHY I HAVENT ANSWERED MY PHONE OR REPLIED TO YOUR STUPID TEXT. I told him I was okay and hung up.
It took me awhile to get back to myself. My friends started asking about him and even my mom. I had spoke of this man and introduced him to everybody. He had told my best friend that he was going to marry me and put me in a new house.
I had told my mom I had finally found ‘the one’. I was so embarrassed when I had to tell everybody we broke up. All their questions were the same. What happen?
To this very day, I don’t know what happen but over the months of my healing process I went back and forth crying, being depressed and then seeking revenge. He would call me every day as if we were still an item. He would text me and asked me if I needed anything. It was too confusing and it was just too much. I even went back and had sex with him once. But he never did give me answer. I just summed it up to he wasn’t the man for me and I needed to move on. I changed my number, gave a two weeks notice at my job and moved.
I had to do all these things in order to start over. He would come to my job and surprise me with things, call me and come by my house(he literally stayed right around the corner). Sometimes in order to make sure YOU are good you have to eliminate things and people from your life. Don’t think about it just do it for YOU. Who will love you more than you? I knew if I stayed at that job with the same number I would never get rid of this man who had turned my world upside down.
I allowed him to stay a factor in my life because I didn’t want anyone else to have him. But the truth is, he probably was never mine. I don’t know. I couldn’t allow him to play with my heart another day. So once I made all those new changes he was gone from my life.
I still think about him from time to time wondering what it would have been like being his wife or having his children. I still wonder what I did wrong, if anything.
All I know is that sometimes God remove people from your life because he can see the turmoil or frustration they will put you through. This man probably was never who he said he was. He could have been married and had a whole family living on the other side of town. I will never know. The last text he sent me the day I was standing in Verizon changing my number I took a screenshot of it.
I don’t know why but I did and I kept it. Don’t worry I’ve moved on and I will never ever go back to him. After writing this post I deleted the text.
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